My friend Jess sent me an old hooping pic that at the time I did not want her to take. Looking at the pic now I see why. However, I’m glad she was able to get that pic. I hate the picture to the left, but I love it when it’s right near the picture to the right, a recent hooping picture. One I was struggling with hooping in that first pic. I couldn’t hoop for the life of me back then. And second I am attacking that hoop with my belly. So much progress. Gives me some extra motivation to continue on the fitness route.
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My friend Jess sent me an old hooping pic that at the time I did not want her to take. Looking at the pic now I see why. However, I’m glad she was able to get that pic.

I hate the picture to the left, but I love it when it’s right near the picture to the right, a recent hooping picture. One I was struggling with hooping in that first pic. I couldn’t hoop for the life of me back then. And second I am attacking that hoop with my belly.

So much progress. Gives me some extra motivation to continue on the fitness route.

So some back story before we get to this picture. I’ve been stressing a ton about MS stuff and Tysabri’s (my medicine) side effects. I should be thinking “I’m healthy! There are plenty of MS patients that can’t do the things you can do! So take advantage of that!!” But instead I’m thinking “I’m going to end up getting brain fever and will have to use a wheelchair forever!” GAH! That may happen. A lot of horrible things may happen. But they may not. I may end up in a wheelchair because of other non MS reasons. Or I may continue to live my life normally and without major incidents. I’m freaking myself out for no reason. I’m doing exactly what I do when I get an MRI. “What if a murderer comes into the hospital, kills the nurses and leaves me in the MRI machine to torture? What if there is a zombie attack (or some sort of attack) and everyone runs away (every man for themselves) and I’m tied down into the MRI machine and can’t escape! I’m doomed to be a zombie. What if a fire broke out and I can’t escape? I’ll doomed to feel myself burn and die!” etc etc. Um zombies? Murderers? Fires? WTF is wrong with me? On top of all that stressing I’ve been bad about consistant workouts and proper eating this last month. Unfortunately that helps build depression, which is a bitch and stopped all the good behaviours I have worked so hard to build. Plus I feel like Eeyore all the time. Except I’m not looking for my tail, I’m looking for the sun. Damn you rainy, cloudy days! So all these bad thoughts, bad behaviours, and gray sky’s had me in a funk. Then I saw that picture. Yep. I almost started crying. I feel like I look like a beast near my teammates. I’m going to be a beast in a wheelchair! The only reason I didn’t start crying immediately was that I was at work. How would I explain my tears? “This picture makes me feel fat but really it’s just a catalyst for the tears I’ve been wanting to shed over the other stressful thoughts in my heads.” After a few evenings of feeling sad for myself I came to a conclusion… FUCK THIS! I am fucking lucky and ridiculously blessed and shouldn’t discount that. Yeah horrible things can happen but thats a universal truth for everyone so stop being a Debbie downer. Stop thinking about the unknown and get your life back on track. Oh, and btw I control my habits and if I stay fat, well, it’s my own damn fault. So cut it out. I’ve done pretty darn good so far but I have more to do. So this horrible picture just became a great, fantastic, motivating picture. This is my fucking year and I refuse to have negativity and gray sky’s kill it. Time to go drill sergeant on myself.
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So some back story before we get to this picture.

I’ve been stressing a ton about MS stuff and Tysabri’s (my medicine) side effects. I should be thinking “I’m healthy! There are plenty of MS patients that can’t do the things you can do! So take advantage of that!!” But instead I’m thinking “I’m going to end up getting brain fever and will have to use a wheelchair forever!” GAH!

That may happen. A lot of horrible things may happen. But they may not. I may end up in a wheelchair because of other non MS reasons. Or I may continue to live my life normally and without major incidents. I’m freaking myself out for no reason. I’m doing exactly what I do when I get an MRI.

“What if a murderer comes into the hospital, kills the nurses and leaves me in the MRI machine to torture? What if there is a zombie attack (or some sort of attack) and everyone runs away (every man for themselves) and I’m tied down into the MRI machine and can’t escape! I’m doomed to be a zombie. What if a fire broke out and I can’t escape? I’ll doomed to feel myself burn and die!” etc etc. Um zombies? Murderers? Fires? WTF is wrong with me?

On top of all that stressing I’ve been bad about consistant workouts and proper eating this last month. Unfortunately that helps build depression, which is a bitch and stopped all the good behaviours I have worked so hard to build. Plus I feel like Eeyore all the time. Except I’m not looking for my tail, I’m looking for the sun. Damn you rainy, cloudy days!

So all these bad thoughts, bad behaviours, and gray sky’s had me in a funk. Then I saw that picture. Yep. I almost started crying. I feel like I look like a beast near my teammates. I’m going to be a beast in a wheelchair! The only reason I didn’t start crying immediately was that I was at work. How would I explain my tears? “This picture makes me feel fat but really it’s just a catalyst for the tears I’ve been wanting to shed over the other stressful thoughts in my heads.”

After a few evenings of feeling sad for myself I came to a conclusion… FUCK THIS! I am fucking lucky and ridiculously blessed and shouldn’t discount that. Yeah horrible things can happen but thats a universal truth for everyone so stop being a Debbie downer. Stop thinking about the unknown and get your life back on track. Oh, and btw I control my habits and if I stay fat, well, it’s my own damn fault. So cut it out. I’ve done pretty darn good so far but I have more to do. So this horrible picture just became a great, fantastic, motivating picture. This is my fucking year and I refuse to have negativity and gray sky’s kill it.

Time to go drill sergeant on myself.

Yay for progress!! 1. I am the thinnest I’ve been since 2005. 2. I am the fittest I’ve been since… well, ever. 3. Even though its still really tight I was able to get the pants, that I’ve been trying to fit into for 6 years, on and buttoned. 4. I am eating the healthiest I’ve ever eaten. 5. I finally care enough to make changes happen. So I need to lose another 20 to hit my next goal. I have Bodyrock.tv, Nike Trainer phone app, a gym membership, and a bike on its way. Plus I have new recipes to try and a way better idea of how I should be eating. Those 20lbs are going to fly off before the end of the summer and then I’ll only be 30lbs heavier than my middle school weight (!!!). Something I can hopefully achieve before the end of the year. Yay! I’m so excited :D
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Yay for progress!!

1. I am the thinnest I’ve been since 2005.
2. I am the fittest I’ve been since… well, ever.
3. Even though its still really tight I was able to get the pants, that I’ve been trying to fit into for 6 years, on and buttoned.
4. I am eating the healthiest I’ve ever eaten.
5. I finally care enough to make changes happen.

So I need to lose another 20 to hit my next goal. I have Bodyrock.tv, Nike Trainer phone app, a gym membership, and a bike on its way. Plus I have new recipes to try and a way better idea of how I should be eating.

Those 20lbs are going to fly off before the end of the summer and then I’ll only be 30lbs heavier than my middle school weight (!!!). Something I can hopefully achieve before the end of the year.

Yay! I’m so excited :D

Equinox Yoga

To be this flexible and able to maneuver your body in this way would be amazing.

29 Ways to Stay Creative (based off paulzii.tumblr.com/post/3360025995)

So the music is kinda eh and I don’t agree with #8 since people may not like coffee but other than that I love this list and corresponding video

My favorites and why:

1. Make list (Who doesn’t love list?!)

11. Surround yourself with other creative people - I like to think good traits like creativity and intelligence get transferred through osmosis.

17. Go somewhere new - Removing yourself from the norm and making yourself vulnerable is a great way to learn how to take risks, feel new emotions and learn something new!

25. Stop trying to be someone else’s perfect - You may cut yourself off from doing something great that you came up with if you are always thinking about what others may think is best.

29. Finish something - So hard to do but so rewarding when you do this.

There are a lot of reasons I want to get fit and one day I’ll write them all down but for now I will leave you with these very awesome images I found on reasonstobefit.tumblr.com because they already had some of my own reasons on their list.

Hoop and Weight Loss Transformation by navessal

Since Alex posted this video on the Beat City Hoops Facebook page I have been watching it over and over again. What an inspiration! This year I am dedicated to losing weight but I also want to get amazing at hula hooping by learning so many more tricks and how to fire hoop! And since I am moving into a place with a deck and a small backyard I’m going to have very little excuse to not practice. So excited.

Only a month into 2012 and its already better than 2010 and 2011 combined :D

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LOL. This goes nicely with what I do now. When at the pull up/dip station I imagine myself dangling from a building. Each time I get off the machine I tell myself “I just fell to my death. Do better tomorrow. You want to live” Exercise is easier when it’s do or die.
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LOL. This goes nicely with what I do now. When at the pull up/dip station I imagine myself dangling from a building. Each time I get off the machine I tell myself “I just fell to my death. Do better tomorrow. You want to live”

Exercise is easier when it’s do or die.

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I love this photo. Getting all suited up for practice. But each time I see it I just think of how much bigger I am than Monkey (my team mate). Obviously that just means I have to make myself smaller. Motivation? I has it. :)
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I love this photo. Getting all suited up for practice. But each time I see it I just think of how much bigger I am than Monkey (my team mate). Obviously that just means I have to make myself smaller.

Motivation? I has it.

:)